Caught between a rock and hard place

Caught between a rock and hard place then add another rock, is where I am at this point in 2.10am.

Lets just put it in simples ways shall we 3 guys... 2 guys who lets say are who I should go with and 1 guy well I.. he's my err I don't know what he's my Gaz in a way (geordie shore reference).

Okay guy 0 to 60 in 3.5 (shut up and drive) that is what he is I have only knew him for about a month only met him once or twice really sweet sweet guy... But I think is he to sweet for me?? I think he could be my Jake (Awkward reference) but I'm still way to in My Gaz guy...so I know that it wouldn't be fair to lead him on but then again a small part of me like's him?? how is that possible?? 

2nd guy lets shall we call him lets just call him my confused guy. I have knew confused guy for over a year now and well lets say we have history bad history and I was in need tonight so I text him and like yeh all them feeling's just came back like I hate him but a small part of me is that I know he is there for me no matter. But he totally just wants me to DTR straight away... I haven't spoke to him properly in about 3 ish months?? but all them feeling's just came rushing back?? and he is like one of them guys who know you inside and out - "You still like me don't you??" WAHHHH!!!! but if I do DTR with this guy I would lose ALOT of my friends ... :/ I just don't know what to do about him.

My Gaz or My Matty guy (Awkward reference) he's a total player in every sense of the word PLAYER. But I still like him... he is the first ever guy who Iv ever said I love you to... he has said it back etc but I doubt he ment it.... I just can't seem to get him off my mind.... Me and My Gaz/Matty guy have been very ON/OFF for the past year and a bit but I feel very abused from him?? He never touched me in a way that I wasn't happy with don't get me wrong but he has mind ****ed me so many times, and yet I will always go back to him... He know's what button's to push to make me forgive him. Every guy I have kissed and err other stuff I'm like your just not him...??? I think also he has been my rock in 2 different situations where other people have just turned away and yet he has always been my shoulder to cry on them. 

Is there different kinds of love's?? I just don't know anymore.

Confused and in love...Maybe??

Bxoxox

Is everything black and white?

Is everything Black and White?

Well...

I had a team building day yesterday and was asked how could you ask a customer if there was anything thing they were looking for so I said as a sales assistant "Is there anything in particular you are looking for?" I got shot down straight away.

First she was like oh they have to be questions where the answer isn't a yes or no, So I say that as in what I would ask and she was like "That is not the kind of questions we ask it's to do with the 4 W'S" Okay I understand,

but isn't the whole point in a "team" there are ways to improve and get better than staying with what we are told?? I mean if something works for someone it might not work for the other person?? So why put in that "we must and mustn't do this" box so soon?? 

I have no clue what this blog post was or is about but I just wanted to vent out my anger!! Anyway... chat soon :) 

Bxoxox

Iv got a question

So yeh I have dog's and today I just couldnt help but look at my 8year old mutt and think hmm I wonder what she would look like if she were a human?? Haha i'm so random but I musnt be the only one who doe's that?? I know other people treat there animals like parts of the family hell I speak baby talk to mine :) lol 

Not sure where this was going but Yehhh... haha anyway bye for now 

Bxoxox

My background ish

Hello again,

Well I'm going to give you a bit of a background on me. 

I'm from scotland, I am at a college doing beauty therapy, Don't know if it's what I want to do the way I look at it i'm just doing it so my father don't moan at me for doing shit all (oh yes this blog will likely have swearing).

Anyway I have left my old job where I had been for nearly 2 years, Not going to go into right now so soon, maybe in time I will but iv lost the support of all my friends at work, and i'm away to start a new "high-fashion" retail assistant so safe to say I am bricking it, as Im no way "high-fashion" so right now I feel like I'm free falling with the ground ever coming to closer to me, and sometimes I just wanna cry sometimes I just go and get pissed with my mates haha :) oh yes drunk stories will be a must on this blog haha :) I have a few already.

Hmmm... I could go on but lets save that for another day as we are just getting to know each other.

Lots of lust and dreams

Bxoxo

Hello

Hello 

I'm becca hey :) haha this is just going to be for fun I think, as I try to value up my life and what I want to make it.

So come along for the journey if you want?? It shall be interesting to say the least.

I shall be honest and very blunt on this blog. If you don't like that will you can politely piss off :) Cheers.