Dirty Minded People

Right is it just me or do certain people myself included on this just, have a way of thinking things in a very dirty places. My mind is always in the gutter as they say. 

Take today at work (I have a new job in a bar)

I was serving my manger a beer and like I always give a bad head (oh god even that sounds bad ahhh) anyway I was like "oh (his name) is that enough head for you" he then gives me a side way look and nods and says "yeh the head is perfect thank you" now all this time in my head I'm thinking oh my dear lordy, I just asked my manger if it was enough head.

I was at the panto last Tuesday and seen foam fingers and I was like "oh I really want a finger" then my mates boyfriend was like "oh you wanting a finger are you?" with raised eyebrows. NO NO NO just NO!!! haha all I was merly stateing was that I wanted a FOAM finger, not that I wanted to be fingered.

Dear lordy has everything now a days got double sexual meanings?? ahh well have a look at some oh the photo's below (jeez even that sounds dirty) to see how simple things appear to me in a way where my mind goes into the gutter.

  (Look at the shadow)

 There is more on google just type in "dirty minded". Simple things like www.something.com I cant keep straight face at as com and cum sound the same. Right i'm away haha bye guys :) 

Bxoxox

Trust issues

It's more a question, can you ever really trust anyone apart from you'r self?

I have major trust issues with people, It's not that I don't trust them i'm just waiting for them to do something wrong so I can be like see I know I shouldn't of trusted you. 

Like a lot of the time I'm a very judgemental person, and I know I shouldn't be but just time and time again iv had my trust broken from ex's or ex "best" friends. 

Like there is one girl who I treated very standoffish from the start but she soon got to be a friend of mine and she broke my trust for lying straight to my face right into my eyes, and straight lied to me while I was crying my eyes out, she looked me straight into my eyes and lied. For that my trust issues of everyone even my own family have been sorry but f**ked from that girl. 

Bxoxox

It's beginning to look like a christmas card

All these lovely pictures are taken from outside my door this morning. It look's like a picture you might get on a christmas card I think. 

  

Bxoxox

Waahhh stalker alert

Setting the scene -

In a chipper/kebab shop last night with one of my close friends very drunk eating my chocolate crispie thing.

Then this guy comes over and ask's if he can sit with us me and mate kinda was just yeh what ever suit your self mate.

Then he starts talking about what is wrong with Scotland..mate 1. why study in Scotland if you don't like us... anyway he then starts to say that he only has English mates as he doesn't like the Scottish people in his Uni class, so at this point in time I'm like mate go away.

So he leaves after me and mate just ignore him for a good 15 mins then then... he goes and hides behind a car that is parked across from the shop and is peeping up every few mins looking at me and my mate... so we know the owner of the chipper/kebab (many drunken nights end up in this place) so we are like ahhh.. then the owner goes across and what is he doing... not that... but eating his chips and cheese behind a car while watching us eat our food.

Just thought I would let you know what happened last night :) haha 

Bxoxox

Why cant I just leave the past alone?

Why can't a just choose my future and leave my past alone? 

Well it happened yet again went back to my matty/gaz guy. Just a kiss and a cuddle nothing more but it's fcuked with my mind since Saturday I can't think straight.

I just know we aren't finished what ever we are... okay I'm not ready or willing to give him up yet?? Why can't I just say no to myself?? He will probably be the death of me some day.

Wish my head and heart would just get over him so I can move on and find a nice guy.

Wishing my heart would stop caring.

Bxoxox

A drunken night to forget

Hey guys what a mess I got into on Saturday night my good god haha.

Well let's just by pass how much I had to drink (not that much so i'm confused how I got in this sate)

Pulled (kissed) one of my mates mate and ended up him carrying me like back to his flat well student halls.. but anyway got into his room and like puked my guts up my god, I'm never sick from drink anyway he was really sweet about like stroking my back while my my head was in his toilet and he was like holding my hair... awhh he was so sweet it about anyway least to say there was NO sex when we got to his bed just spooning while  I try not to be sick again... and him just like stroking my back telling me everything is okay and not to worry.

2hours later it happens... his room mate comes home (she is a girl) and well lets say she brought a person back with her... so yeh while I was still trying nea to be sick in his bed all we hear is her moaning... oh no it get's worse... then the bed starts going Im guessing her bed is backed onto his wall?? As it was banging into his wall.

AHHH cringe worth right there!!!! Never been so embarrassed in my life haha. 

Well I will leave you laughing at my cringe worthy moment haha

Bxoxox

Caught between a rock and hard place

Caught between a rock and hard place then add another rock, is where I am at this point in 2.10am.

Lets just put it in simples ways shall we 3 guys... 2 guys who lets say are who I should go with and 1 guy well I.. he's my err I don't know what he's my Gaz in a way (geordie shore reference).

Okay guy 0 to 60 in 3.5 (shut up and drive) that is what he is I have only knew him for about a month only met him once or twice really sweet sweet guy... But I think is he to sweet for me?? I think he could be my Jake (Awkward reference) but I'm still way to in My Gaz guy...so I know that it wouldn't be fair to lead him on but then again a small part of me like's him?? how is that possible?? 

2nd guy lets shall we call him lets just call him my confused guy. I have knew confused guy for over a year now and well lets say we have history bad history and I was in need tonight so I text him and like yeh all them feeling's just came back like I hate him but a small part of me is that I know he is there for me no matter. But he totally just wants me to DTR straight away... I haven't spoke to him properly in about 3 ish months?? but all them feeling's just came rushing back?? and he is like one of them guys who know you inside and out - "You still like me don't you??" WAHHHH!!!! but if I do DTR with this guy I would lose ALOT of my friends ... :/ I just don't know what to do about him.

My Gaz or My Matty guy (Awkward reference) he's a total player in every sense of the word PLAYER. But I still like him... he is the first ever guy who Iv ever said I love you to... he has said it back etc but I doubt he ment it.... I just can't seem to get him off my mind.... Me and My Gaz/Matty guy have been very ON/OFF for the past year and a bit but I feel very abused from him?? He never touched me in a way that I wasn't happy with don't get me wrong but he has mind ****ed me so many times, and yet I will always go back to him... He know's what button's to push to make me forgive him. Every guy I have kissed and err other stuff I'm like your just not him...??? I think also he has been my rock in 2 different situations where other people have just turned away and yet he has always been my shoulder to cry on them. 

Is there different kinds of love's?? I just don't know anymore.

Confused and in love...Maybe??

Bxoxox

Is everything black and white?

Is everything Black and White?

Well...

I had a team building day yesterday and was asked how could you ask a customer if there was anything thing they were looking for so I said as a sales assistant "Is there anything in particular you are looking for?" I got shot down straight away.

First she was like oh they have to be questions where the answer isn't a yes or no, So I say that as in what I would ask and she was like "That is not the kind of questions we ask it's to do with the 4 W'S" Okay I understand,

but isn't the whole point in a "team" there are ways to improve and get better than staying with what we are told?? I mean if something works for someone it might not work for the other person?? So why put in that "we must and mustn't do this" box so soon?? 

I have no clue what this blog post was or is about but I just wanted to vent out my anger!! Anyway... chat soon :) 

Bxoxox

Iv got a question

So yeh I have dog's and today I just couldnt help but look at my 8year old mutt and think hmm I wonder what she would look like if she were a human?? Haha i'm so random but I musnt be the only one who doe's that?? I know other people treat there animals like parts of the family hell I speak baby talk to mine :) lol 

Not sure where this was going but Yehhh... haha anyway bye for now 

Bxoxox

My background ish

Hello again,

Well I'm going to give you a bit of a background on me. 

I'm from scotland, I am at a college doing beauty therapy, Don't know if it's what I want to do the way I look at it i'm just doing it so my father don't moan at me for doing shit all (oh yes this blog will likely have swearing).

Anyway I have left my old job where I had been for nearly 2 years, Not going to go into right now so soon, maybe in time I will but iv lost the support of all my friends at work, and i'm away to start a new "high-fashion" retail assistant so safe to say I am bricking it, as Im no way "high-fashion" so right now I feel like I'm free falling with the ground ever coming to closer to me, and sometimes I just wanna cry sometimes I just go and get pissed with my mates haha :) oh yes drunk stories will be a must on this blog haha :) I have a few already.

Hmmm... I could go on but lets save that for another day as we are just getting to know each other.

Lots of lust and dreams

Bxoxo

Hello

Hello 

I'm becca hey :) haha this is just going to be for fun I think, as I try to value up my life and what I want to make it.

So come along for the journey if you want?? It shall be interesting to say the least.

I shall be honest and very blunt on this blog. If you don't like that will you can politely piss off :) Cheers.